My Eternal Dream

I close my eyes in search of a sign

But all my thoughts make me feel more behind

No one knows the way that I feel

Not even I can tell what's real

I've lived in the past for so long

I don't even know what's right and what's wrong

I wish you'd tell me what to do

But you don't even have a clue

I don't know if I should run and scream

Or close my eyes and wake up in a dream
All my thoughts make me doubt my worth

'Cause you're not here with me on Earth

I'll admit this decision was tough

But the way things are just isn't enough

So when I go to sleep tonight

That's when I'm gonna take my life

So please let me tell you what is real

Please let me try and tell you how I feel

'Cause if you can't be here with me

I'll close my eyes and I'll be free

Kari Fallon